off tangent: June 2013

(I wrote this in the middle of essay season... can you tell?)

When I forget to water the plants for months on end and then I sit on the swing in my backyard. It's haunted by their lingering souls, parched and unloved.
When Tony Abbott is almost definitely going to be PM.
When I want to tell people that I love Tolstoy more than life itself but can't because I haven't finished War and Peace and really, the only book of his that I've actually read is Anna Karenina
When I realise how many basic words I still struggle to spell, like vacuum (one c? two?)
When I imagine small puppies falling in the gap between the train and platform (every time I get off)
When the ticket machine swallows my ticket at Town Hall and won't give it back. I paid $2.50 for that!
When I get the grouchy old woman driving the 642X though I was expecting Rory
When I procrastinate essays
When I think about what we're doing to the environment but the zombie apocalypse (which will make it better by destroying all the factories) hasn't come yet
When my mum tells me to clean my room
When my mum doesn't tell me to clean my room... and does it herself *worst*
When I imagine one of my grandparents dying and not being there

Less serious problems:

When I realise Changi airport doesn't excite me any more and I must be growing up
When I come to terms with the fact that I will never have pretty feet. Feet are really important to me.
When I wonder if my friends will all scatter with the wind in a few years and get jobs in far off places. Or, if I will.
When I really want to be Vandana Shiva but I can't because she already exists GAH
When the alternative to Tony is Julia.
When the jasmine flowers wilt so quickly.
When I listen to Adele. I wasn't feeling angsty before... and suddenly I'm cursing everyone who ever broke my heart (mostly, fictional characters in books)

This post will probably grow with time. I hope you have a good day.

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